i think the stress is getting to me.
fighting for your beliefs … sometimes i just want to stop.
it really gets tiring.
sometimes i just want to do what everyone else is doing, other times i just want to feel like i belong, & then others i just want to be numb to the realities of this world like the other zombies.
… but i just can’t allow myself to do that so i guess crying is the only way.
spent today walking around las vegas for the last time & then drove three hours back to rancho cucamonga, got dinner at the cheesecake factory in victoria gardens, shopped for shoes for my boyfriend, went to my boyfriend’s house to drop off all of his stuff & to pick up my car from his place, & now i am finally back home!
back home to the daily grind - wake up, take care of my pet-children, work, sleep, repeat.
it was GREAT while it lasted - three days of freedom.
i find it so sad & wrong how people regard some creatures as pests while thinking others as family, exotic, or food.
am i the only one who feels that people should coexist with everything on this planet?! instead of killing “pests”, why don’t we just learn to live with them & learn to live together? i don’t kill the mice that hang around my chickens’ coop, i don’t kill or scare off the possums that walk through my backyard, & i also don’t smash or kill any bugs in my home anymore!
this same idea goes for other human beings as well - who are we to say that the beggar at the freeway exit is a pest? who are we to say that certain people belong in one area & not in another?
he is busy working, i am busy working & our schedules don’t match up very well this summer.
he & i only get to see each other once a week & i can’t even text him that often either because his phone keeps dying 😪
i can’t wait for this trip to vegas next week!
QUALITY TIME! 😁
three days to ourselves with no work & nothing to worry us.